Going to our Church....

so for almost the past mmonth my mom and I have been attending our ward every sunday. I have to say it is the best ward I have seen yet! we have some of the greatest people there in that ward. they are amazing people that make you feel welcome and loved, and accepted.

every sunday just seems to get better and better, every lesson is always a great one. and the teacher who teaches it is always wonderful! I wish I could have this experience everyday in my life all the time!

one thing I do know is that by reading my scriptures and praying daily I can become closer to heavenly father and feel of the spirit of the holy ghost, and feel of that presence when I am not at church. and do kind things for others throughout the week to make me feel good.

oh and I forgot to add that our building was dedicated today in a combined sacrament meeting with one other ward which was so amazing! it was the most wonderful experience today! I wish everyday was this good! oh and today I took my tithing to the bishop of our ward for the first time!

we read a little bit from doctrine and covenants today, and here is a verse I would like to leave you with about service. it is D&C 81:5 Wherefore, be faithful; stand in the office which I have appointed unto you; succor the weak, lift up the hands which hang down, and strengthen the febel knees.

I would encourage you this week to go and do something good for someone and be an example to others around you.

have a wonderful week!

Lindsay Dean Passed Away.....

pictured above is lindsay at age 3

so far all of you who know me, I follow quite a few heart kiddo's blogs. well last friday the 17th of june, two days before fathers day lindsay suffered a seizure which led to cardic failure and she returned to heaven on the evening of the 17th.

please pray for the difficult time that their family is having. a few days after lindsay passed away her grandpa also passed away, so their family is dealing with a lot of loss right now. if you would like to help out with funeral costs you may go to lindsay's blog at http://lindsaysheart.blogspot.com and click on the "donate" button to the right hand side of the screen. they could use all the help they can get.

as her mom had just gotten out of the hospital that week, so their family is dealing with a huge medical bill overload right now. they could use a lot of extra prayers for some time..

St. George Trip......

so this past weekend around my grandma's birthday we went to st. George. it was such beautiful weather up there, and we had such a fun time up there enjoying it!

we spent a lot of time outside, and got some sun. I spent some time in the pool and hot tub. it was a blast! they water was so refreshing, especially on the second day in the pool.

we shopped at a ton of stores, and had a fun shopping spree of our own (which we never get to do at home) so we enjoyed ourselves that weekend while we had the chance.

we so did not want to have to come home. I got skme cool new clothes which I love! and I have loved wearing! now it is getting too warm for the pants I bought and they might be too big for me by winter, we will see :)

but at least they are one more pair that is long enough for me until then.

my mom and I had such a blast, we so did not want to come home. when we were driving home we drove home it 100 miles of rain which was really bad, and a nerve wracking ride, and drive for my mom since the drivers in utah either speed in the rain, and ride your butt because you are going a safe speed, and they don't care that you are being safe, or they speed and go off in the ditch and therefore create rubber necker drivers in the rain....lovely! so that is what we dealt with some of the way home.

over all we had a blast and so were not looking forward to coming back to reality, and our real lives back home.

we are for sure going to go visit there again, or even better we are going on a bigger trip later this year!

Concert, Inventory and More

since my last post things have been pretty busy around here, and around work. at wal-mart we were getting ready for inventory which happened on May 12th. I am so glad it is finally all over with...it was a lot of hard work to prepare for. I find myself still straigtening and reorganizing things from the left over mess that the overnight people did during that time. but at least I know my way of doing things is the correct way to do them!

before inventory I had the opportunity to go to a benefit concert with my mom that paul cardall was hosting for his cousin who just received a double lung transplant not too long ago. it was an amazing night! my mom and I had a great time! we had the chance to hear from a variety of musicians, polished, and new. we heard from a 15 year old girl who was just being introduced by paul cardall who lives in lehi, utah. and one other young woman.

this concert was so much fun, with the variety of music that was there that night. it was an amazing night. my mom and I wished there would have been more of paul but it was still great hearing all the wonderful music, and just being able to sit back and enjoy it for an evening.

especially since I knew I was going to have a somewhat overwhelming week ahead of me. I wish I had pictures to show for that night but I don't it was a blast though!

Test results are in.....

so today I called and left a message for my GI doctor this morning for them to call me back with my test results. then I found out they had called my mom, so they I called them back again, and I got the nurse who helps my doctor, and she said that I have no mini gallstones, which is a good thing....but, I do have fluid in my abdomen, and we do not know what is causing that. ti could be a bad thing. she also said that my hip pain could be because of cysts on my ovaries, but right now my hip pain is not my concern.

as far as I am concerned, the fluid in my abdomen is no good, and the pain in my hips should not be happening either, so what does this mean??? well we really don't know..but maybe more doctors appointments in our future!

my shunt could be having a problem, or my liver could be having issues (I looked that one up)it is a possability, and a few others, but until we get to the right doctor we won't know for sure what is causing the fluid in my abdomen....just one more thing we have to figure out!

I am still having hip pain and abdominal pain, so until we get this figured out I am sure it will be hanging around....

I just want to feel better! that's all I want. one day!! at least we are one step closer to getting things figured out, thats a plus!

I will post a little later tonight. we have a concert we are going to and then I have more I want to write about on a different topic.......

have a wonderful night!

MRCP/MRI Done!!!

a few days ago I called Jordan Valley Hospital and was able to get my MRCP moved up a few days early since I have been in so much pain, and today proved itself to be no easier on the MRI table.

the first hour of being in the tube I was in such great pain that when they were done with the first set of tests they suggested coming back a different day and doing the tests. they went and got my mom and we talked it over and I went to the bathroom to take a small break, and then came back and finished the second half of the test. I was just sobbing before I got up to go to the restroom because I was hurting so bad. I just can't wait to figure all of this out!

so then I came back and felt better, but then as the second set of tests went on I started feeling that burning feeling in my left hip again and I started to get uncomfortable, but not to the point to where I was in tears, but pretty close!

so today when I was on the MRI table, I saw a familiar face, and I told this lady I recognize you, you took care of my fragile grandma while she had her MRI down here in the hospital I went on to tell her that she was 80 and little, and she said oh yeah you guys had the big family. and it just brought tears to my eyes that she remembered my family, and my cute grandma. I wish I could have told her what happened to my grandma, but we couldn't get that far, and I wish I would have gotten her name, but of course I didn't she was so wonderful though!! I just loved her!!

so I posted this excerpt on facebook earlier today "So today I was taken care of by one of the wonderful MRI techs at Jordan valley hospital who took care of my grandma while she was there! It was so nice to see a familiar and sweet person there :)" and one of my friends from facebook replied to that post and said that she works at Jordan Valley hospital and is the director over the HR department and she could recognize this technician for her wonderful service. she was happy to hear that I was so well taken care of there.

I had a great experience today, wither I was in extreme pain or not, I know my grandma was watching out for me, because the technician that helped her helped me too! it was the most amazing and pleasant experience I had today, besides the check-in person who needed a personality transplant horibly!! but other than that my whole experience was wonderful :)

Gallstones......AGAIN!!!

so last night I experienced more of a sleepless night like I did the night before because o my back pain. today I went into my GI doctor, and told him my syomptoms I was having and he felt arond in my upeer rib cage area and all around my abdomen and didn't feel anything abnormal.

he did say that after some one has had gallstones, especially a big one like I have had that they are sometimes likely to get little ones in the bile duct, and in the liver, so that is why I could be in so much pain all over. I guess it only makes sense!

so I am going to call on monday and schedule yet another MRI for my liver, to be checked out, and i the mean time I am just going to take my pain pills he gave me when I need them. this is just crazy! I thought I was truely done with gallstones!

then the next thing we have to figure out is my throat! so we will make an appointment to see my ENT doctor soon. these appointments never end, one year I will be like a finely tuned piano and everything will work as it is supposed to! altogether!!

so there we have it, an answer to something, now we just have to get the for sure answer, and then take care of it and hope that I never get them again! so I am going to get my MRI scheduled for May 12th since I am off that day, and then we will see what that test show, then we will go from there for our next plan of action....

I just want to feel good and for one day have something not hurt, I know one day that is going to happen. one day in my near future! I am just getting tired of feeling this way. mainly in my stomach or side! would be nice!!

update on work and more

so I haven't updated this for a little bit, this week started off not very good, and things have evened out. I just hope to see some improvements. towards the end of the day on monday I had some shirts sitting in a basket by the fitting rooms and I was helping a department manager with her shirts she needed clearanxce stickers put on. anf our ZMS walks up to me and says are you going to hang these shirts? and I told her that I went to find hangers but couldn't find any so she took my drinks out of the cart and zoomed off with it and didn't say anothe word, rude jerk!!!

so by this time I had 5 minuteas left of y shift and I grabbed my things and walked to the back with tears filling my eyes, and I walked by the managers office, and my favorite assistant manager happened to be in there,, her name is TJ, and she is so nice. so I sat down with her and asked her if she had a few minutes, and in the mean time my favotire ZMS walks in, her name is Jen, she is so kind, so they both listened to what I had to say and they said they would talk to carolyn and see if they couldn't get things solved.

I also want to see about getting in a different depazrtment, because I am so tired of how I get treated over there. it is like everyone else gets away with everything, but once I am there there are major problems!

a while back I had a fellow co-worker of mine ask me why I am so quiet, and I simply aswered i don't know because a certain person was standing near by, so of course I couldn't tell her the real reason. but there are a few people I won't open my mouth around, and so I just don't talk, and she is always around those certain few people or those certain few people are always around her, so I don't like to say much until after they are gone.

on a totally different subject, there is a little boy that I have been follwing his blog, his name is skyler. I have been inspired by him and many others to want to volunteer at a hospital, so I went online to see which hospitalks had open oportunities for volunteering, and ther primary childrens riverton location does, so I applied there and I am just waiting to hear back from them. I hope that I can get on with them and gain an understanding as to what goes on inside a hospital so I can do that one day for my permanent profession.

so I wait and seee....also I contacted a lady about service projects for primary childrens for down town salt lake city, and I am currently waiting to hear back from her, and get the information in the mail so I can get that wonderful service project going. I am headed in the right direction of what I want to be doing as far as helping people as best I can until I get to where I really want to be one day, it's truely amazing how I feel from contacting these people and I hope I can go further...

I will post more when I have heard back from the lady at primary childrens.

until then...have a great day!!!

Acid Reflux Issues

so tonight I just have overall not been feeling the greatest. my head doesn't feel right, and I have been clearing my throat nonstop! this is really getting old!

I have a bad feeling as to what is happening in my body, because it seems that with doubling my dose of dexilant things are not getting better, and I am having new symptoms, such as a dry cough.

I am judt really getting tired of not having an answer to anything, or a solution to this problem! it is really getting frustrating!!

tonight I ate dinner, which seemed to take longer than normal because I had to clear my throat so mmuch, then after that I took my pills and drank some stuff and I fwelt like I had to burp, so I tried and some of my milk came back up, not all the way but it started to. this is all caused by the acid refulx, and LPR.

I just want to feel good!! I don't know when that day is ever going to get here. lately I have been having pains in my spine, and in my left side in my lower abdomen, and in my hip, and part of my back area. mainly in my hip and abdomen area though, and my spine feels weird about half way down everytime I bend to grab something off the floor, or below eye level, it really is getting old!

oh and I wake up with a sore throat every morning, as a matter of fact my throat is sore right now, and I just don't feel the best I could feel.

I really would like to know what is causing all of these issues. as far as I know the last time I heard we got my GERD symptoms under control, and I no longer have gastritis, but now I have this other issue, and it is getting way old!!

maybe one day I will have everythingall figured out and I will be on the road to recovery and feeling better!

Moab Trip/ My Mom's Birthday

so this weekend we actually had soething fun that we have had planned for a long time, and I have been looking forward to it so much! my mom and I went to moab for the weekend for her birthday, and it was so much fun! we went to arches national park, and saw many beautiful mountains, and arches!

then on my mom's birthday we went to a dinner before we drove home. it was so much fun, and the people in moab were so kind, even the people in the last resturant we went in. we also did some shopping this weekend along the streets of moab which was a blast! I so enjoyed every minute of this trip and so did not want it to end!

the rocks and mountains we saw up there were just breath taking.....here are some pictures from our trip.



my mom and I at the entrence at the Aches National Park







after the trip home I had a few presents for my mom to open, and she LOVED them. I can't wait for her to use the new pan I bought her. we are going to use it tonight! then I bought her a bracelet and a necklace that have a heart charm on the end of them. they are very beautiful! I will have to get a picture of her in them.

we had such a great time, and her birthday was so much fun! what a great day it was!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! I LOVE YOU!!