Protected

today I was outside with bentley like I always do, and I was just turning around to walk home when all of a sudden a huge dog which looked like a pit-bull came out of no where and started attacking bentley. I started screaming, and before he could really get bentley I pulled bentley up by his harness and held him in the air. I screamed for the kids to get their vicious dog away from bentley.....I do not know how long the encounter lasted but as soon as it was over I fell to my knees and embraced bentley and started to cry. I was so grateful that he was okay and that he was protected from this scary dog.

I was by myself, and this lady came up on me when she saw me sitting there crying holding bentley. I explained to her what had just happened. she was very nice and walked me home. I shook the whole way. it took me at least a few hours to settle down after that awful encounter, but I am grateful that I was being watched over.

since receiving my endowments I have seen many blessings in my life, and today was a huge blessing because bentley is safe and was not hurt, and I was not hurt either. heavenly father was watching over me today. I said a prayer of gratitude for watching over bentley and I because I know that without my heavenly fathers help we would not have been safe.

picture for my temple invitations from last year

Post Surgery Appointment

Today I had my post Surgery appointment for my eye surgery and my doctor was very pleased with how my eye looks. I am still having a few issues with how objects look like words in my textbooks; they look like they are stacked on top of each other and objects far away are blurry. right now it just hurts my eye to be in areas that have bright lights, and I can't look at objects like computer screens or TV's for too long. all of these things will go away eventually over time.

the first few days were just a little tough with the pain, but since then I have not taken any pain medications or anything. I am pretty tough when it comes to tolerating pain. this is now my third eye surgery and my mom and I both hope that it lasts just as long as the previous two which were between 12 and 12 years and 1 month between each one, so we hope I won't ave to have surgery on my other eye for some time or the left eye won't go out of place.

my eye looks pretty good for being out of surgery for a week today. it is just a little red. the redness is starting to get better. I will try to add a picture to this post later. I actually have some pictures from early on, and one as recent as last night that I took.

have a great evening!

so I have decided that with each post I do this year I will add a different picture at the end. by the end of the year I think it will be neat to see how many different pictures I have come up with. in the fall I hope to take a photography class so then there will be even more fun photos!!

Thoughts on Grandma

as I was reading through some of my previous blog posts on here I couldn't help but ponder a few things. one post was written some time in 2008 and it was about my grandma. during that time my grandma was not doing too well, and she was being fed by the way of a feeding tube. on this particular day she was at my house and wanted to watch movies with me all day that day. what I would give to be able to watch one more movie with her or read one more book to her.

in the post I wrote that I had told her I was all movied out, and that I was tired of watching movies. I wondered if she was tired of watching movies. my grandma loved watching shows such as touched by an angel, the andy grifith show, etc. so TV never got old to her. back then in 2008 I was only 20, so I was young and not really in any mood for wanting to watch TV with my grandma.

fast forward to 2010, and when my grandma became ill and ended up in a nursing home I was by her side every day until she passed away. in those two years I realized that watching as many movies as she wanted didn't even matter anymore, because she couldn't even watch the TV. I was having to read her books and play her music and interact with her in a way that I felt she could know I was there. my perspective of spending time with my grandma changed, I relished every second with my grandma. my only regret is that I never. gave her a hug or said I love you the night we left before she passed away.

I know that my grandma loves me though, and I have been shown that through experiences in my life, and I am grateful she can always be a part of me. I was one of her special grand children. I was the 21st grand child born on the 21st of August in 1987!! none of her other grandchildren will ever share that bond with her.

I think the time I got to spend with her before she passed away was so special. although I learned some hard things at a young age, I think it has helped prepare me for who I am today. I think having to take care of my grandma in the ways that I have has prepared me to want to work in the field I am choosing to study. I love working with people and caring for people, and it has shown. when my grandma would have to be fed, I would always be willing to put her food in her bag and hook her up. not many people know how to do that at the age of 20.

my grandma was such an amazing, talented, strong willed, forgiving, non-judgmental human being. I hope one day I can be more like her. she was one of the best. I just love my grandma and will be forever grateful for the time I was able to spend with her. I know she would be so proud of me and where I am today!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

I Know I have taken a lot of time off from this blog, but that will change. I am planning on trying to blog at least once a week, or at least twice a month. since I began school in 2014 everything has been crazy! I have not had a chance to really slow down. I am hoping this summer to have a nice break and my mom and I can enjoy ourselves and do something fun!

some things that have changed since I last updated:

1. my foot is 100% back to normal, and life couldn't be any more crazy than it is.

2. my mom and I had to put my kitty down this past august, the day after I started school (that was tough on both of us)

3. my mom adopted mimi

4. I went through the temple for the first time for myself (that was an amazing experience) and I had a lot of support from family and friends!

5. at the end of 2015 my mom and I found out that I need another eye surgery!! this will be my third eye surgery in my life! my second eye surgery in 12 years!

I am really excited to set some new goals for this year (2016) and write in my journal more! I have already started this today, I just hope I can keep it up!

have a great night everyone! I will write more soon!