A Book worth Reading.......

so I am not sure how many of you out there are readers, and I am not sure how many of you have heard of a musician by the name of paul cardall, but he wrote an outstanding book that I just got done reading today. I started reading it two days ago and could not put it down it was so good! I suggest you buy it and read it, you will not put it down once you have picked it up. it is available on amazon.com, and it is also available at deseret book, and segull book, but Amazon.com has the cheapest price.

I reallly recommend this book to anyone out there, it is a very uplifting book. for more information about paul cardall and his inspirational story you may visit his blog at http://beforemyheartstops.blogspot.com/ he is one inspirational man who has been through so much, but has so much to offer and teach us.

I don't read many books, but this one was good and I loved it! I am going to read another one my neighbor gave me and see how long it takes me to finish it.

P.S. the title of Paul Cardall's book is titled "Before my Heart Stops" very Amazing! there are no words to describe how good his book is. you will just have to read it for yourself and see what I mean....

400th post / a couple things from the other day

so the other day my mom and I had my aunt Joanne and her husband john over for dinner and a movie and had a great time. well while we were having dinner we were having a discussion about my cupcakes, since I make the best cupcakes in the world! anyone who has had them from me knows that, and my home made frosting too...

anyway, so we got talking about how I should take them to people, like people in hospitals, or to a homeless shelter, etc. but first I need to set up my own website, and get people who would want to help me by maybe donating items such as cake mixes, or even money so I could go get the items to make the cupcakes.

in the next little while I will have a separate blog for my cupcakes up and running and I will list all the separate ingredients needed for the different cupcakes I have made that have turned out, then you can decide wither you would like to donate cash for the item, or wither you would like to donate the item it self.

also on my cupcakre blog, I will have a "donate" button on the side, if you would like to donate any funds to my account for the items.

thank you so much for your support!

Kandice

my thought's

this past sunday my mom and I attended my aunts ward, and went to all of her meetings. I thought it was such a wonderful experience, and my aunts lesson was wonderful. I still can't get her lesson out of my head. her lesson in relief society was on fasting, and having a purpose to fast.

as I sit here and think of everyone around me, my mom my aunt, the people who have been ill, and most importantly the people who need us to fast for them the most, the ones who may be suffering from a terminal illness such as cancer, or maybe a heart deffect.

we all need to have a purpose to fast for, and it is very important. last week I went to visit my neighbor next door, and she had mentioned that her son-in-law who has cancer is not doing very well, and since then, their family has been on my mind, because I know what it is like to lose someone to cancer, wither their sons-in-law cancer is getting worse or not, I do not know, but I do hope that he will be cured one day.

today while I was at work, an overwhelming feeling came over me that I should call or go over and see my neighbors soon, I need to check and see how their son-in-law is doing. I don't know why I go this feeling today, but I know there must be a reason, and I will soon find this out. maybe I was supposed to hear that lesson last sunday for a reason, and prompted, by the spirit for a reaso, which is yet unknown.

this week I have been reading Paul Cardalls blog, and he is a true inspiration, he has some touching posts on there from the past few days about his friend who is suffering from severe heart failure. to see his blog go to http://beforemyheartstops.blogspot.com/ the post I read today, is a lot of the reason for this post. his post almost brought me to full tears. very heart wrenching.

there are just so many people out there suffering, and we may not notice it, because to us they look fine on the outside, but on the inside the pain and suffering is so much more. please take a moment and think of someone, that you could fast for this week who is suffering, who may have cancer, who may have an uncurable heart condition, who may only have a few weeks left to live because of a terminal cancer. you may help in some small way, and bless their lives without even knowing it.

doing my research

so lately I have been doing a lot of research on the different problems that could be wrong with me. I have searched "symptoms of hyatal hernias", "symptoms of GERD", "Symptoms of throat cancer", you name it, I have searched for it.

I have also searched for treatments for hiatal hernias, and for GERD, and they are both surgical treatments. so they could require a long hospital stay, or a long LOA from work.

however, I am determined to find out what I have, and cure it. I am getting tired of not being able to eat in peace, and having to clear my throat numerous times at dinner, or belching, for no reason. I am just plain tired of it. I have been dealing with it since the picture above was taken in July of 2010! and that is WAY TOO LONG!! if you ask me!!

a lot of times I just avoid eating during the day because it is a pain, and it takes way too long to do, and plus I would be learing my throat after every bite! it is so insaine, so my only solution is to eat one meal a day and only suffer once a day.

I am getting frustrated, because I can't eat a little faster, and I have to eat very slow, and I have to drink a glass of milk so slow, it is so frustrating!!! I know that there are some people out there dealing with a lot worse things than me, but now my throat, and esophagus are starting to hurt, and it is scaring me. because if GERD is left untreated it can lead to cancer, and that is something I do not want to get. because that is worse to try to treat than GERD it self.

well I have another post from earlier today in the works, so I will post that probably tomorrow.

Prescription problems, insurance issues, and wal-mart

so the other day I went to go refil a seizure mediczation of mine only to fine out that I was going to be paying $ 350.00 for it and that it was not longer covered by my insurance company. so after a long talk with my pharmacy, and calling around to other pharmacies, we decided to switch me over to the generic FOR NOW!

now for the insurance part. i called my insurance company and they explained to me that I could file an appeals claim for the medication with my doctor so that my insurance will cover the name brand topapax medication. I have been on the name brand since last April, and haven't had any different since then. so they are going to mail me out the forms and then it should take about 3 weeks for me to appeal this case!

now for the wal-mart part of this post. I heard that wal-mart switched to a new insurance plan or something, and they no longer want to cover all of us expensive sickies that work for them just to suck them and use them for their insurance. that is all wal-mart is good for, nothing else, everything else they suck at and they are totally on my crap list as far as I am concerned, they were number one on that long ago!

so this just gives me one more reason to find a better job, with better insurance coverage that will cover ALL OF MY PRESCRIPTIONS! be thankful that you are not a sick person with health issues, because if you are then you sure pay for it!

man I am just a little overwhelmed, and tomorrow I plan on calling the two places I applied at a while ago to see where they are at with my applications and with their decision in hiring me. I sure would love a different job!

I feel a little better now. maybe I will go unwind somemore and get some good rest tonight, and I know tomorrow is going to be a great day! because it is going to be spent at home!! thank goodness for days off!!

eating and such

so since I have had my last scope last august and my esophagus was dialated I have been able to eat, and swallow things okay; but recently it always takes me an hour at dinner time to eat say two peices of toast, scrambled eggs, and three peices of sausage, or longer, and then about another half an hour to get my glass of milk down after I have taken my pills for the evening.

This is getting to be a real joke! I mean who takes an hour to eat a small meal like that, and who takes a half an hour to drink an 8 ounce glass of milk? it's rediculous???? and I am always clearing my throat.

I have done some major googling and research, and it seems that I am having more GERD symptoms, and issues with that. when I had my first scope in July I was given a medication to help with that, and so far it has not been helping too much. sometimes it ddoes and sometimes it doesn't. and recently my GERD symptoms have come back, plus with a few new ones!

so what are we looking at now? who knows, maybe another bunch of doctors appointments, but the only other last solution I am going to see about doing is surgery to fix this problem once and for all. I am so tired of this, and I want relief!

I don't even know where this GERD came from, so I want to get rid of it! I am so tired of having to eat slow, and take my time, and then have my mom wonder if I am okay because I am taking so long to eat. I mean it is good she worries about me, but ealmost every night I get asked at least once if I am okay (which I guess it is better than not being asked at all) I love my mom for caring so much to ask me if I am okay. I am so glad she does. she is the best!

I just hope to find a solution, and a permanent one this time to this problem once and for ALL!!

New Years Resolution's

so this year I have come up with some major new years resolutions. since last year kind of fell apart after april i am going to pick up where I left off with a few things.

the first thing I plan on doing is finding a new job. at the end of last year I applied for three different jobs, and I am still waiting to hear back from each one of them. I sure hope I hear back from them soon, because then that gets me closer to getting out of the whole lovely retail world.

secondly, last year at the beginning of the year I started weight watchers and it was going great, then I started a new seizure medicstion, my grandma came down here, and well you get the point......things fell apaprt, I ended up losing 40 pounds on my own without weight watchers help because of other reasons, and other issues I was having. so this year I am going to continue to lose the rest of the weight I was in the process of losing last year. I only want to lose about 70 more pounds, so by next christmas I should be where I want to be.

this year I decided I am going to start working out with this season of the biggest loser group and see what happens and how far I get by the end of the show. who knows, maybe even before then I will have reached my goal weight! we will see.

this year, I also want to try to start saving up for school, so I can continue my studies, and I may even change my area of study. instead of being a teacher I may get my CNA. we will see what 2011 brings.

also I plan on hosting a few AVON parties this year too, and I am hoping that will boost my sales in that area. I love selling AVON. it sure has been nice knowing I have that when I need it. but most of the time I forget I even have that little bit of extra money there to spend, so them my balance in my account keeps going up, and I am able to set aside a little more every few weeks. I LOVE IT!!

so much I want to do, and I sure hope this year is better than last year. I would love to see this year turn out great!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!